Rantings

I said I was going to post an update last night when I got back from the hospital but forgot.
 
Anyway, there's been not much change. His temperature has gone up again and now he has a rash. Again. Looks lovely with the jaundice. :-/
 
Last night was hard. There are some evenings I visit him and I feel quite positive and upbeat, but last night I was getting scared and emotional again. Even these slight blips make me nervous. He's so frail that I'm afraid the slightest blip could knock him back miles.
 
 
I'm beginning to get so fed up with all the people phoning the shop asking to speak to him. When I explain he's not available they say they'll ring back later. When I say he won't be back later because he's in hospital they want to know when he'll be discharged. I have to be honest with these people and tell them that right now I don't know if he'll ever be coming out of hospital and it's still as hard now as it was three weeks ago. I feel like I'm choking on the words as I try to say them. If it wasn't for the fact that I need customers to call and place orders, then I would turn all the phones off.

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