Saturday, August 08, 2009
I think today is the first day since Ian first went into hospital (7th
Feb) that I haven't cried. Is this a good thing? I don't know, but I
feel just a little bit better today. Instead of feeling as though I
have to spend the rest of my life with a huge sense of loss, and
feeling that there is no future to speak of for me, I now feel as
though there all sorts of possibilities open to me that weren't there
before. I can do things now that I couldn't when Ian was alive. Am I
being selfish? Probably. But the point is, now I can be, and it's
harming no one.
will get the chance to see them live. They never come to the UK which
is such a shame - they've even been to Russia! So, it's something to
plan for. Here's hoping the fans there are enjoying them as much as I am right
now listening to this:
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You have remained on my heart and in my prayers all through this. i cannot imagine the heartsore burden you bear. One cannot, at first visualize life without someone. Eventually one finds there is life again and it is all right to live it. Wishing you every joy without ever forgetting the love you have known.